A New Beginning

Thank God for blogging, it's a great way to vent one's feelings without really (hopefully) hurting anyone. I cannot talk to my friends about my marriage, that is out of bounds, I wouldn't do that. But I can blog. So when I began the "this marriage is going nowhere fast" conversation with my husband I was able to think more clearly and I had already worked out for myself what the most troublesome issues were.
The conversation was a long one, it took most of the daylight to sort it out (which is not that much at the moment, it gets dark shortly after 4 p.m.). The celibacy thing is certainly still on, but now we both are willing to try out new grounds. There's this whole tantra world in which the male is not supposed to be ejaculating and exchanging bodily fluids but still the feelings are supposed to be very strong. We'll see how that works out. I am willing to try. There have been times before when I would welcome a bit less sex so that I would have some creative energy to use for other purposes. One thing in my endless "to-do-before-I-die" list is writing a children's book. I don't necessarily have to have it published. It would just be nice knowing that I have begun and completed it - with illustrations and everything. My Mom is a painter, there's always the choice of asking her to illustrate my book, but I intend to at least try myself and if nothing works out, involve other people. So I'm hopeful.

Today I'm translating an old and a bit weird Michael Douglas movie "Falling Down". I have to finish it before going to bed. I'll get to that now, there's work for some 2-3 more hours, so - see you again, perhaps tomorrow. I have great plans for tomorrow.